Dearest Nala a.k.a Nala Bean, a.k.a Queen Baby,
First off, Happy Birthday. You have officially turned 1 years old and we can kiss those months goodbye. I promise I won’t be that parent that says “Oh, she’s 13 months old.” Lol. You’re one. This feeling is the best thing that I have ever felt in my entire life. I still remember bringing you home for the first time. You were so small. I didn’t eve know how to secure a seat belt in the car. One of the discharge nurses had to adjust your traps and get you settled in for me. But I got better, huh? That was the beginning of the adventure for us.
This past year has been quite the adventure. You’ve ben down for me from traveling back and forth from Glenford to Columbus and back 3 weeks old and wrapped in blanket after blanket in the middle of winter. You were a trooper as we made the permanent stay to Columbus and had to stay in the family shelter when we didn’t have anywhere to go to. At just 8 weeks old, you completely shocked me at how resilient you were. I am proud of you, leaps and bounds we have come from a mother- daughter duo that wasn’t supposed to make it out of that hospital a year ago.
Did you know that I used to talk to you while you were in my tummy? After I began to learn that things weren’t going to work out with your me and your father, I began to lean more and more into you, I told you everyday that we were a team and that I would always be here for you no matter what our lives look like. I promise that this ride won’t always be the easiest. But, it will be the most adventurous thing I’ve ever had to do in my life. Being your mom really is like watching your heart beat outside of your body.
I could go on and on about you, I swear. I have never loved anything or anything the way that I have loved you in y entire life. I don’t think that I’m supposed to. I believe that we happened exactly the way we were supposed to. When I first had you, I didn’t even now what to do with you. I was hopeless. I didn’t even know how to swaddle you. But the biggest thing that I’ve learned is that: you can’t think about what you’re doing as a parent. You have to just do it and it gets better. We spent this year growing, learning, and surviving with each other.
Nala, thank you because the truth is, you have helped grow me up. You are healing so many different things in me and making me stronger than I ever thought you could be for the both of us. I love you dearly and I look forward to the years ahead. ;)